Phoenix

A word or two before ya’ll read this one. This is writing. I heard about my recent foul language (Mom), so I want to reassure you all that I am fine. It’s just words. Likewise, nobody needs to be having a “You’re So Vain” moment over this. Just sayin’. *smoochies* Oh, and as always, please feel free to risk hurting my feelings. I want your input.
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Burn the pastfuture,
burn the futurepast,
release us both.
Words to the flames.
Praying to myself
for guidance.
I’m the only one
who can break the
addiction.

Need so strong,
I breathe
through sobs,
struggling not
to reach for you,
beg for help
because I know
I’ll find only darkness

I shatter my image of you,
shatter myself
on your image of me.
I don’t see myself
through your eyes
anymore.
I’ll leave the ashes
of my grief in the sand
and walk away.